see it....feel it.........cant touch it........

well this has happened to most of us...........we want something..............we can see it in front of us all the time and feel its presence all the time around us all the time but cant have it........

its a different thing for all of us........

for me its TIME.....the non stopping tic tok of the clock.........but not just anytime the time of the person i care abt the most.......

i know its not her fault nor its her choice or decision but still she is bound by the ever tightening bonds of social fellowship and must obey them........

but this could be explained to the mind but not to the heart...............it does not listen to reason its just governed my instinct......and it does not want to understand dat time cannot be found for the one person whom one cares abt the most in the world.............

i did engage myself in violent outbursts when my hearts desire for time were not met but now i have come to realize dat love is like sand the tighter u try grip it the quickly it gets out of ur hand....so i did stop but still the heart pines and pines..............

but wat to do i must obey the rules of a social engagement..............